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Carlos Cardenas*: "My family were more worried about my soul than my ass"

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    Carlos Cardenas* is a gay AIDS activist who works for a nongovermental AIDS organisation in Bogota, Colombia's capital. He talked to IRIN/PlusNews about how HIV/AIDS has affected his life.

    "I'm the son of a Baptist pastor so I grew up in a Christian environment. All my teen years I thought I was possessed by the devil. My family found out I was gay when I was 17 and they discovered a letter from a boyfriend under my mattress.

    "They were more worried about my soul than my ass.

    They sent me to a Christian psychiatrist and he tried to change me, but at some point I decided I wasn't interested. When I started college I decided to forget my teen years and my religion.

    "When I was in college, someone I was dating invited me to visit his friend who was sick. He was living in a very poor place, in a shack, and he was dying from AIDS. His mother gave us coffee and little plate of rice and I was unable to eat it. I thought it was dangerous.

    "The first time I tested [for HIV] I was working for a bank and they tested me without my knowledge.

    One day my boss came and said in front of everybody, 'You're okay, you don't have AIDS'.

    "Working for [an AIDS organisation] was the best thing that could have happened to me, because it helped me understand not only my own life, but gave me an opportunity to really help others.

    "Before I started working for them, I wasn't using condoms. I think I was lucky because some of my friends have died and my current boyfriend is living with HIV, and my last boyfriend was also positive.

    "I didn't choose them for that reason; they found out their status when we were already together.

    I think it was good for them because I was there, knowing the facts. It's kind of hard for me sometimes, but I can't tell people that it's enough to use condoms and lubricant if I don't do that in my life."

    *Not his real name

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    This article was produced by IRIN News while it was part of the United Nations Office for the Coordination of Humanitarian Affairs. Please send queries on copyright or liability to the UN. For more information: https://shop.un.org/rights-permissions

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